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Starting a new course brings me a rush of excitement and motivation. The energy from a passionate lecturer made lessons feel inspiring and engaging. But when group work enters the picture, that initial enthusiasm quickly turns into frustration. I dislike working with people who I find it hard to communicate. After waiting for someone else to take the lead but to no avail, I decided to plan timelines and workflows. It seems like the right step to keep everyone on track and

All of me wish to take things in my own hands. But a voice inside me reminded me clearly, "Not but without proper timing, benefactors and planning." I don't have what it takes now because I am probably not in power or place to argue my stand. Besides, does my 'voice' and experience truly matters? So jaded, broken and helpless. "It's all in your mind." Read, "The mountain is you." Resilience in the face of adversity.

After a dreadful long wait, he gave me that chance I needed. Yet, within that rush of joy, there can be a nagging sense of anxiety. Perseverance can yield positive results. Living a day as it is and going with every flow. “No matter how small, good news always brings a smile.”

Navigating life can feel like walking a tightrope between the shadows of loneliness and the flickering lights of hope. I faced complex family dynamics that shape my emotions and experiences. In my household, boys were often valued more than girls, affecting my understanding of self-worth. This unspoken hierarchy made me question my place, leading to feelings of loneliness that lingered like a shadow in my life. The experience of being overlooked can be isolating. This left me

Rebuilding from a setback is no small feat. It's not only exhausting but also presents a chance for personal reflection and growth. Plenty of books to read so that I don't fall so far behind the crowd. Anyway I discovered that hope involves more than simply wishing for a better future; it requires taking actionable steps towards it. This shift in perspective allowed me to focus less on lost opportunities and more on what I could build moving forward. But waking up everyday at

I watched three impactful films that opened my eyes to the complexities of life. Each film, while telling its own story, connected with me on different levels, inspiring thoughts about forgiveness, ambition, and righteousness. The first film, "You and Everything Else," featuring Kim Go Eun, dives into friendship and betrayal. Can you truly find it in your heart to forgive someone you hate? The first time I heard of 'Assisted Suicide". I would have chosen that same way to end

I had the opportunity to speak with a monk who has devoted over 20 years to a life of simplicity and mindfulness. The monk, who has spent his life growing up in a serene temple in Penang, shared how his upbringing shaped his perspective. Growing up surrounded by spiritual teachings, he nurtured a life built on discipline and devotion. This environment influenced his commitment to a path of inner peace. When I asked him how he maintained his focus over the years, he offered,

Starting over feel like a heavy burden. Whether it’s switching careers, coping with a personal setback, or facing a significant life change, the idea of restarting everything seem overwhelming. "Feeling anxious or even defeated is completely natural." Accepting these feelings is crucial; it allows me to process rather than push them aside. I am so sad and sore inside, I felt so torn every single day. (How did this happened to me?) Enrolling into a diploma course was a persona

Our brains process conscious thought at a mere 10 bits per second. Negativity often occupies our minds, clouding our perspective on life. Suicidal thoughts can emerge from a relentless cycle of negative thinking, which many equate with personal weakness. In reality, facing and overcoming these thoughts takes significant courage and determination. Desperate call for change and probably because I am the only one drowning. When will all these obligation end with peace or will t

Life can often feel like a relentless cycle of pain, especially when the wounds from betrayal linger. Many people share this struggle, feeling trapped in a cycle that seems unending. If you have ever found it challenging to heal from betrayal, you're not alone. Understanding the Weight of Betrayal Betrayal can leave deep scars. It disrupts our sense of self and significantly undermines our ability to trust others. I experience betrayal with long-term emotional distress. Feeli

Not anyone who can recite the Buddhism scripture deemed the same kind of respect like those who ordain nunnery or monkhood. Likewise, vice versa: Not every established master would give off the same vibes as how respectable a 'buddha' should be like. Some day that mask would be tore away by someone bold and courageous to take all of them down. I prayed for justice, but I won't ask for it willfully now. An unjust peace is better than a just war. -Marcus Tullius Cicero

No matter how much resentment I seemed to have towards someone, it was gone when I saw him fighting hard for his life. Guilt actually took over because I felt I could have done more to save him better. Grateful that family support can still be felt unexpectedly. Lost connection was retrieved and seeing them undressing their own wounds in front of him seemed so remote but familiar. It took real courage and strength to 'forgive' one person whom does affected and altered our lif

It's a lovely feeling to have genuine humans taking care of our wounded heart especially when we least expected. It does feel sad to note that it's only during solemnly event that one's able to see everyone's clearly. Family members who made every good effort to come & comfort you just when you are grieving meant so much. A glimpsed of new light, let's hope he wakes up tomorrow with neat love and prayers. "Hope is the thing with feathers that perches in the soul." — Emily Dic

In the event of life and death, I find many people nonchalant to my pain and loss. I was still lucky that a few angels bothered about my cries for help.    While I am weeping the sorrows of watching my loved ones fighting for their life, there can be laughers & casual chit chats from people who actually save that life for me. Frustrated yet staying calm and controlling my emotions in many dimensional levels, made me throw up repeatedly with curses and protective chants insi

"Life is a book and your forties are the chapters when it all starts making sense."  Whines: The darkness inside me.....will never be...